hey nina. how are you and your brother doing?

[jr.]

i was reading this porn book about different porn stars and it was talking about how you and your brother hadn't talked to each other in like 12 years or something. i was just curious why that was. did he have a problem with the line of work you are in? and if so why?
i have a sister to and i thought about 'what if my sister became a porn star?' and i figured i'd still keep in touch with her, but i'd rather her not stay in that line of work.

Well, my brother is very religious and doesn't think what I do is moral, or right for his sister. He doesn't think it should be illegal, or that anyone should go to jail, he just doesn't want it for me.

We speak of other things over email, and are polite at family gatherings, but we stay away from the personal, as I have as strong opinions of how he lives his life as he does mine. I've often wondered if, when our parents die, if he'll talk to me at all. Even when I retire, I'll still have spent 20+ years here, which will always make him unsettled. As well, my book is about my videos, so my subsequent celebrity/fame/money will still be coming from my time in pornland.

What makes it so crazy is that it's not like we were ever super-close and warm and fuzzy with each other. All four siblings have gone their own, very different ways, as well as my parents, so I really have to wonder why he cares so much. I don't bring it home, or dress inappropriately, or even talk about it. I've come to the conclusion that he's just a pill.

I think that, no matter what I chose to do with my life, he'd find something about it of which he could disapprove.

Would he say that if you went on to be a physician?

I guess I am going to answer that question in my own mind.

Funny, how I know have brothers who talk to me because I understand what is going on with dad. (The old days of working at JAMA, after all.)

don

[jr.]

Originally Posted by Nina

Well, my brother is very religious and doesn't think what I do is moral, or right for his sister. He doesn't think it should be illegal, or that anyone should go to jail, he just doesn't want it for me.

We speak of other things over email, and are polite at family gatherings, but we stay away from the personal, as I have as strong opinions of how he lives his life as he does mine. I've often wondered if, when our parents die, if he'll talk to me at all. Even when I retire, I'll still have spent 20+ years here, which will always make him unsettled. As well, my book is about my videos, so my subsequent celebrity/fame/money will still be coming from my time in pornland.

What makes it so crazy is that it's not like we were ever super-close and warm and fuzzy with each other. All four siblings have gone their own, very different ways, as well as my parents, so I really have to wonder why he cares so much. I don't bring it home, or dress inappropriately, or even talk about it. I've come to the conclusion that he's just a pill.

that's interesting. i don't know why i like porn so much and porn chicks, i've even dated a couple of girls who had or were making porn and it didn't faze me, but then at the same time i'd prefer my sister not to make porn for some reason, maybe it's a double standard i can't shake. maybe it wouldn't bother me at all if she was more level headed, wich she's not.

hmm. could be the case jr.

Don

..it's just the thought of somehow accidentially viewing your sister suck some man's cock on screen and the fear of getting sexually aroused at watching that....a hidden incest fear, perhaps???

That's perfectly natural with normal people, jr....not everyone wants to sexualize their immediate siblings, no matter how sexy they may be. I watch a lot of porn and get off to a lot of beautiful women..and I'd probably freak if I saw any of my relatives on a porn screen, too....not that that would ever really happenm, given my family's religious background.


Anthony

There are many subjects that I cannot talk about with any of my family, including politics, religion, sex. It's unfortunate, but it's something I've accepted. It's a given...at this stage, there's just no point in even trying.

I suppose Anthony has a point in so far as incest.

There is also serious argument that we all want what we think is best for our family members, especially our sibs and kids. We had this discussion about this time last year, to the effect that too many producers "talent" and pay them poorly, that there are no residuals and the like.

It is hard, I know. I always wonder, for example, what Dick and Jerry Van Dyke feel, or Tommie and Dickie Smothers.

What I am grouping toward is the family dynamic. And if you knew my family....

Don

[jr.]

Originally Posted by Anthony_JKenn

..it's just the thought of somehow accidentially viewing your sister suck some man's cock on screen and the fear of getting sexually aroused at watching that....a hidden incest fear, perhaps???

That's perfectly natural with normal people, jr....not everyone wants to sexualize their immediate siblings, no matter how sexy they may be. I watch a lot of porn and get off to a lot of beautiful women..and I'd probably freak if I saw any of my relatives on a porn screen, too....not that that would ever really happenm, given my family's religious background.


Anthony

i think for me it's the type of some people she may come across in this line of business. and the fact that she probley wouldn't be able to handle it mentally, not like a guy would with so much meaningless sex.